Good News, Bad News

It burns... It burns...

Good News: I do not have frostbite! Hurrah!

Bad News: I have the shingles! =(

Good News: Shingles usually only affects old people, which further proves that I am mature and wise. =P

Bad News: It burns... It burns so much...

2 complications for my case:

1) Shingles attacks the nerve cells. Mine is unfortunately at the head which is the worst possible scenario. If it reaches my ears, I go deaf, if it reaches my eyes, I go blind.

2) There's a 20 percent chance that even if the scabs and blisters go away, the pain will remain for years to come. This condition is called postherpetic neuralgia. A lifetime of this burning sensation? Oh dear.

Things have gotten from bad to worse. What was once ants biting has now turned to my head being on fire. A mere touch of my head makes me feel like Hades in the Disney show Hercules, except he doesn't find it painful. Now, it's already at my left eye - I have three huge blisters which look ready to burst there. Tears constantly pour out like a thundering waterfall.

What did I do to deserve this?

I feel as if God is punishing me for my sins, burning me for the things I've done wrong, putting me through living hell. But endure it I must.

Jeremiah 10:19
Woe to me because of my injury!
My wound is incurable
Yet I said to myself
"This is my sickness, and I must endure it".

I shudder, what if this pain lasts a few years? What if I go blind? Well, no point complaining and worrying about it, I'll just have to take it like a man. Besides, the pain I'm going through right now cannot compare with the pain that others have gone through. No matter how much it hurts me, I'm sure that others have gone through even more intense pain. So I am grateful.

What happens will happen. In the end, what doesn't kill me can only make me stronger. =)